I no longer have the desire to own a house, to buy things, to work for someone else, to watch TV, listen to music, to have sex, to have friends.

it HELPS to not spend too much time on here

bunch of depressives!

fuck that , this is a great place to commiserate

Society has become plastic throw away just like its products. Its values are plastic recycled and disposable junk.

They used to start building cathedrals knowing they would never see them finished..just for the joy of creating something beautiful ..now its all about profit and making a quick buck..life itself has become a means of making a quick buck

Before kids can walk they are taught to compete to make a quick buck

The art of living of savoring the moment of searching for beauty and love and emotional spiritual fulfillment is gone..

It has become a big mall where everything and everyone..or most are on sale..

Centuries ago..the intellectuals..the artists..the philosophers..the Saints..people of integrity and wisdom that created were the norm

Now its absolutely tacky..full of cheap values..women have forgotten how to be women and think a woman means one is supposed to be a whore. many men are confused and cant find their roles anymore.

The ones that cleaned out the ashtrays are now inviting to the dinner..so we are served..fast food on plastic plates

rif raff are running the show ..uncouthed people without class..and this society reflects it

it has nothing to do with money..its upbringing and principals..knowing how to behave..how to treat others..how to interact

thats the backbone of every civilized society

if you have a bunch of knuckledragging polished up morons that dont know this..you get chaos an mayhem simply because they havent a clue

let's not get carried away here ^

they dont search for beauty ..harmony ..spiritual enlightment love..they search for satisfying their bodily needs..food..drink..f.king..having fun..enjoyment..and of course money and power

because THEY HAVE NO CLASS..thats all they know and aspire for..

because they ARE BASIC AND THICK AS BRICKS

oh let me..just a Little bit..its such fun

Somewhat like the rich dude that has to work so much to pay the bills he never has time to get in that big fancy swimming pool he just had to have in his back yard.

A timely post for me.

My desire to seek pleasure in this 3d world is rapidly waning.

I began feeling numb a few years ago and I have had many ups and downs concerning this feeling of "I don't care anymore."

Last night, the numbness was the strongest it has ever been.

I have become
comfortably numb...

You need to have friends though.
Everyone does. Who do you talk to otherwise?

It is a must to clear yourself of all influence. You will find your motivation again, trust me. But when you reemerge you will be much more refined and you will do what you truly want to do. Give it time you will rise again just like the phoenix.

I'm with you man.

When you no longer have anything to cling to or chase or control you....

Then you are free. Or as close as possible to being "Free".

But maybe thats why free souls incarnate into human bodies.

To reinvigorate the perspective.

Maybe we should become grey aliens, Seriously. At somepoint of existence. all the stuff our current human body needs to stay alive , the rampant resources, commercialism and trash we produce, and the sex we all crave to recreate, has to end sometime down the road

What does it all matter? We all die and shed this physical shell.

I feel like Im sentenced here, in a earth hell. Sure a select few have multi million dollar paychecks and dont have to worry about mortgage, bills and food., Must be nice, But most of us will die never knowing what its like to be filthy rich,never know a stress free life.

I was poisoned and crippled at 19, What does it matter anymore. Lost the lust of life at 19

And people like slut miley cyrus twerks and whores herself onstage and gets showered with millions of dollars. While the working man works to his death so a CEO can rake in multi million dollar paychecks as well.

There must be a hatred for honest, hardworking American men , esp in america. Ive noticed the churches get paid to immigrate refuges and they are given instant house, job, food on a silver platter, while American unemployed laborers have to line up for plasma donation.

We are in hell already.

Happiness comes from within not from with out. What you call love is a neuro/hormonal phenomenon. You can get your dopamine buzz without people. I could be happy on a island in the middle of nowhere as long as I had food water and weed plants.

I'm pretty much in the same boat as OP. Nothing is worth the trouble. I rent a small apartment, drive a 15 year old car, mostly leave work and go stright home, rarely watch TV - if I watch anything it is on DVD or I stream it. I do have a girlfriend that I see a few nights a week just to have some social life but frankly don't really want that much social life. I'd be perfectly content as a hermit. My electric bill is like $50 a month total, mostly used for a little heat or air and some cooking. Other than that I'm pretty much a phantom. I doubt half my neighbors even know I am in my apartment. I have heavy curtains for insualtion and small wattage lamps and am rarely outside except for the minute I spend going to and from the car. Some weekends I lock the door Friday by 5:30 PM and may not come out until 8:00 Monday morning.

It's like having no desire to exist here anymore. Even filthy rich wouldn't matter. It's all illusion. It's like I've finally made a decision to stop playing the game, I've learned all it has to teach me. I'm just spinning my wheels waiting on the event.

Come over and we can hang out.

Do you like to play old Nintendo games?

Meanwhile we have fuckers like this that spend their free time building a dungeon to rape and eat kids but we cant even put him to death. WTF is wrong with this world? it said he might be facing 27 years which means he will probaly get out sooner

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you lack vital energy and vigor, an active mind.

the masonic doctrine talks about the 'active principle' which is the active mind. It is the progenitor force of the universe. the gods are the source of all that is, there is no creator, they create it and they know it. they are real people, they are your reality, in fact.

I believe all this, but my active mind believes in justice, logic, truth, beauty, love, Which has slowly but surely been slipping away and degrading in this world.

If we allow the most degenerate and offensive people to live in our world. and the most selfish to make it big (morals get you no where) whats the use.

Hav eyou even done 20 pushups today and 50 ab crunches?


have you even run with the deer in the forest?


Have you breathed fresh air lately?

Your not alone OP..

I feel the same way. Even the simple pleasures in life now that I used to enjoy a lot like sex, sunsets, sports etc are now mundane and repeitively boring.

Just want to get out of here but cant kill myself. Want some biiiiiig doom soon so natural events can take me out

Yup, former athlete and 14er. Happiest feeling I had was above timberline .


But I was poisoned and in a coma at 19,

Now Im continually tired, even though I eat good, take herbs, vitamins,It barely helps. Nothing to do but pass the time, till I get another go around at life, probaly another planet, new body, Anyplace other than here with the psycho paths, materialism . Never had riches, so I wont miss it.

I know when I die Ill go to another world. An angel appeared in my sleep and told me so. Im only 41 and wish I could swap bodies with a 100 year old. Its taking too long. I dont believe in suicide, wont take my life early. I just have to wait each day and endure the evening news watching the world go down the shitter.

Yup, former athlete and 14er. Happiest feeling I had was above timberline .


But I was poisoned and in a coma at 19,

Now Im continually tired, even though I eat good, take herbs, vitamins,It barely helps. Nothing to do but pass the time, till I get another go around at life, probaly another planet, new body, Anyplace other than here with the psycho paths, materialism . Never had riches, so I wont miss it.

I know when I die Ill go to another world. An angel appeared in my sleep and told me so. Im only 41 and wish I could swap bodies with a 100 year old. Its taking too long. I dont believe in suicide, wont take my life early. I just have to wait each day and endure the evening news watching the world go down the shitter.



You were poisoned????

lol,.. crying right now. Tears literally going down my cheek.

enough about me, Im done, my life is over symbolically. I just want justice taken out against all the degenerates and psychos and pedophiles and rapists that we keep alive. Get them off the streets.

And see some good American manufacturing jobs come back, so honest, healthy Americans can find work and raise their families in job security. Make the streets safe, jobs abundant. Food for all. Thats all I wish for now. that todays kids have something to live for.