The Mind Hackers often call themselves "Watchers".

Project done, woohoo.

It is. My heart I rarely feel. Sometimes it glows. So beautifully it warms and blankets me.

My crown is always there. It never is absent. As with the eye. Agape.

I was rather lucky that I was somewhat isolated when this all began happening to me in late 2011 and all of 2012. I knew everyone was worried. I had lost a lot of weight really fast as well, which added the physical factor that people picked up on immediately. I was told more than once I looked 'gray'.

I have kept all of this nearly completely secret from everyone. I have shared some things with my brother and a friend. I come here to GLP to find others like me, to who I can talk to about stuff I have to hide outside the Web.

Fortunately I am proficient at it, such that my relationships and life as I had before, remains intact and strong. I am very blessed to have a strong support system of people that I know love me. I come here in part, to offer the same support in return to those who may not have it.


Really glad you like it. I'm reading it through again as well. I think it is the 4th time for me. Still very engaging and entertaining.

I can't even tell you guys the misfortune I had after finishing my project though...the worst most despised thing a teacher could do...my soc network teacher moved the due date of our big essay up two days from the date listed in the syllabus...but she doesn't change the syllabus, she doesn't email the students, and I never once remember her mentioning it in class....guess I was just unlucky enough to miss her saying it?!

So once I finish my project last night...I go try and get maybe few hours of sleep before class at 9am....and something occurs to me so I check the project guidelines for this essay and find out, surprise, she changed the freaking due day to today, the 23rd, during class, at 1pm...I'm like holy shit what a nightmare...that two days is a whole world of difference in project/essay land....I would have structured my entire weekend differently had I known....

well I'm going off of like two hours of sleep....and trying to finish this essay in the three hours between my 10am class finishing and the 1pm class ... and I'm like I'm too fucking drained, this is gonna be a shit essay...my only hope is an appeal...so I sent what I hope will be a very uhm psychology of influencing letter to the professor...protesting in a very kind and hopefully...influential,....way...what I believe to be...kind of unfair ....lol

I'm in a somewhat bad mood for that reason, like hide-under-the-covers-and-hiss-at-people kinda moods....

You are welcome. It is only a matter of time before it is no more.

I was thinking earlier I could use a nap. But nah. I don't nap really. Probably just go to bed early.

Time to get a new laptop?

It's the lack of desktop I'm really feeling I guess. Macbooks aren't bad but sort of a rip off when you consider the specs on this thing. I only bought it four years ago, I paid $2000, the fact that it's out of date...well I guess I should have trusted my gut back then when it told me, you're really paying 1500$ for the brand....

Yes. $2000 for a laptop is...not smart. All we PC users know this about Mac users.

:P


How to fix any computer
[link to theoatmeal.com]

Lol, did you guys see page 78 of this thread?
Thread: Hollywood superstar battling with AIDS ? (Page 78)

It's pretty funny...I think Charlie Sheen actually posted on it....

For over a week, every time I saw the title of that thread on front page, my brain would read it as, 'Hollywood's battle with Super AIDS'.

I hit rock bottom at that time also. Then December 2012, It changed.

Its funny we come to the web to tell such intimate things to complete strangers. It is a blessing.

It was what I needed to do. It was unacceptable to not share it with my family. The moment I saw her and felt her, I knew I was all in, and they were going to accept it or not. If it was going to stand in my way it had to go. I was already at the point of "lets see who will truly be there". And I found out quickly. There is great purpose to this, I have yet to know why though.

Perhaps I was cold as well, but it had been primed to be.

Rearranging the headers on glp seems to happen an awful lot more for me here then anywhere else...

Love you cayly :P

*hisses at everyone*
Sorry...force of habit

Its, ok I can be a bit of a dick myself when I'm tired. Haha, I might underestimate myself sometimes :P

The Web has allowed people for the first time, to be able to show their '3rd face'.
[link to i.imgur.com]

I think people for the most part, are at their most 'real' on this site or on the Web. That is why I never bought the 'role play' arguments here. I knew most, believed what they were saying.

And obvious role-play could be fun. Like that reptilian thread I participated in. The OP was very clever and kept his audience engaged and asking questions.

ayukyuk...

Good place for the third face :P

A good role play can be quite informative as well
"channeling"
haha...good role players can do that quite well
even if you don't take most of it as true, per sea, it's still real, in its own sense

Yes. But even here it is still a mask. What I hope to see is the beauty of it unmasked, glowing its true glory.

Completely free in the moment, as I get to see it within.

He never broke character once. He was very convincing. He said he was with a group that were mining something specific I can't recall somewhere around the 4 corners area. There ended up being a strange anomaly over that area I saw on Yahoo news, and linked it in the thread.


I'll see if I can find it.

Here it is...

Thread: I am a reptillian from what you call the Dracos system. Ask me a question.

per se ffs

With that said, I am not unwilling to believe reptilians exist. Which is why I enjoyed this thread very much.

When I was 5 y/o I saw a reptilian being apparate right in front of me. The portal makes sense in that regard.

So bears lodge came up again

[link to www.livescience.com]

Devils Tower is a sacred site to several Native American tribes, including the Arapaho, Crow, Lakota, Cheyenne, Kiowa and Shoshone. Traditional ceremonies still occur here. The tower is called "Bear's Tipi" by the Arapaho, "Bear’s Lodge" by the Cheyenne and "Tree Rock" by the Kiowa. Kiowa and Lakota tribal legend holds that the vertical marks found on the tower are a result of a giant bear's claws trying to climb the tower to reach a group of Indian maidens fleeing to the tower's summit. When the tower touched the sky, the seven maidens became the stars of the constellation Pleiades.

Maidens, daughters, sisters...same thing
Note, the bears lodge is within the race track circle of stars. I had a piece of paper that I wrote down and stuck in a book that had the 7 daughters, just found:
Ursula=little bear
Xenia=hospitality
Helena=torch/moon
Velda=power rule-inspired intelligence
Tara=goddess of the sea/tower/shining
Katrine=pure
Jasmine=gift from god

What is the meaning of bear medicine, fancy?

I finished Ava's Demon. Its good. Turned rather quick in the end.

I want to finish the story.



Lucian

Jezebel

Depends on the source and reference. The common is power. They say a scrawny bear in a fight with a viscous dog, natives know to bet on the bear. Even the dog knows. But Also represents father, uncle, brother who guards the turtle. Turtle has the strongest heart. It beats days after death. Turtle represents grandmother.

Was going to say because I saw an image similar to this one in a book with the lines like golden mean in the sense of the rectangle straight lines and then a diagonal to show the spin.
[link to 1214productions.com]

Then this post, I think goes

If consciousness is visual, what is awareness? I would gather awareness is the combining of all the senses like the soft spot before it hardens. Or like the third eye dissolving the 5 senses into one. Oh, this is wadjet where Set divides to have it built back a new type of thing.

I forgot the masons and the like came up today, lol. Funny thing I've noticed over the years, theirs vows are being broken purposefully no matter if death was the effect of breaking them.


(neck symbol in this, lol)