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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 30747832  United States12/24/2012 06:25 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | |
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| Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 30747832 United States12/24/2012 06:36 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 You see the irony there don´t you. Get rigt with God first of all. Dude you have no clue how right I am with God I spent a year of homelessness, because my family screwed me over and not only did I forgive them I let myself fall to God's will I have prayed every day and every night for 5 years for God to show me what to do and to guide me. God clearly has a plan for me I have slashed my wrists until and I quote a doctor on this "Holy Moses that looks like a road map". I feel like God hates me even though every waking breath I devote to any that need me. I have went without so many times just so others could have a meal and be happy even if just for one night. I worked my ass off and spent every penny I made to help out 4 of my friends who would have been homeless and starving if not. Trust me I am right with God the thing is I'm lost and beaten and I'm losing faith. |
mysterynomore  User ID: 30763656  Australia12/24/2012 06:47 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Nothing can help you until you start to see things in a different perspective. I'm not into organised religion...so i'll be coming from a different perspective. The drugs will only make things worse..they mask the problem. It's happenning on a grand scale throughout society. Read one of my threads and see if there is anything that resonates with you. If you need more... i'll help you. Thread: it's becoming widespread...depression and the breaking down of there day to day lives....why? |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 30625390  Spain12/24/2012 06:47 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 You see the irony there don´t you. Get rigt with God first of all. Dude you have no clue how right I am with God I spent a year of homelessness, because my family screwed me over and not only did I forgive them I let myself fall to God's will I have prayed every day and every night for 5 years for God to show me what to do and to guide me. God clearly has a plan for me I have slashed my wrists until and I quote a doctor on this "Holy Moses that looks like a road map". I feel like God hates me even though every waking breath I devote to any that need me. I have went without so many times just so others could have a meal and be happy even if just for one night. I worked my ass off and spent every penny I made to help out 4 of my friends who would have been homeless and starving if not. Trust me I am right with God the thing is I'm lost and beaten and I'm losing faith. wow....just give it time op.. I think you might have an amazing spiritual mission ahead of you..  Be patient..let things unfold.. |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 19706474  United Kingdom12/24/2012 06:49 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever? Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 You have to have faith in yourself then you will find god |
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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 30625390 Spain12/24/2012 06:51 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Op..you have been tested..you have tried to kill yourself and failed..you have kept the God presence Tested..to make you strong and understand the plight of others tried to kill yourself and failed..because you have maybe a very important spiritual mission ahead of you Kept Gods presence..proved your faith Op..something good might be coming be patient..and keep the faith |
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| Anonymous Coward User ID: 1610534 United States12/24/2012 06:58 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever? Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 Find a simple, straightforward job. Get a small place, live a quiet life. No parties, no drugs, no drinking. Exercise, eat right. Deliberately let your life calm down. Take a whole year to do this - a whole year to calm down. save some money, keep your expenses minimal. Do not get into any relationships. stay away from family and former friends. Take the year for yourself, and don't try to figure anything out - just let yourself calm down, and rest. Try to spend time in nature. Stay offline as much as possible, and read books instead. You need a break - give yourself one. A year isn't too much, and you'll have your feet on the ground again. And think about God, in whatever way makes you feel loved. If it doesn't make you feel loved, throw it out. One year - give it to yourself as a gift. You deserve the time for yourself. |
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| Happy Xmas User ID: 28731716 Australia12/24/2012 07:01 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I think you may have reached what some might call the "creator" level. ie you are in control, and no amount of prayer will help because you are beyond help. You are free of the game and God in your world. The Universe is waiting for you to be who you really want to be. I am at the same place, minus the negative thoughts or bleak outlook. For me I know I can turn the whole world around, but I have to get the girl. And maybe you do too. The world we live in, although mostly fake, responds to positive emotions, esp love. |
| Happy Xmas User ID: 28731716 Australia12/24/2012 07:03 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I let myself fall to God's will I have prayed every day and every night for 5 years for God to show me what to do and to guide me. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 God helps those who help themselves. He is not into people who take no responsibility for their lives. Why do you think the majority of humans blame "the devil" for what is happening in the world right now? You can do it, you just need to know that others are on the same path. |
| Shoot straight Johnny User ID: 29552936 United Kingdom12/24/2012 07:04 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I am right with God the thing is I'm lost and beaten and I'm losing faith. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 You did it again, your contradicting yourself. The irony. It could be that you are one of the 'Job's Comforters'. Just maybe. Last Edited by Brit Perspective on 12/24/2012 07:04 AM The chariots of God are tens of thousands, and thousands of thousands. |
| mysterynomore User ID: 30763656 Australia12/24/2012 07:12 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I let myself fall to God's will I have prayed every day and every night for 5 years for God to show me what to do and to guide me. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 God helps those who help themselves. He is not into people who take no responsibility for their lives. Why do you think the majority of humans blame "the devil" for what is happening in the world right now? You can do it, you just need to know that others are on the same path. This is a prime example why the world is in a state of denial. Organized religion at it's worst..it's infected every aspect of peoples lives.. The day I see this mentality that's come from a false and blinded view point...cease to be...will be the day I jump up in joy. And that's not to far of in our future. |
| mysterynomore User ID: 30763656 Australia12/24/2012 07:12 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I let myself fall to God's will I have prayed every day and every night for 5 years for God to show me what to do and to guide me. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 God helps those who help themselves. He is not into people who take no responsibility for their lives. Why do you think the majority of humans blame "the devil" for what is happening in the world right now? You can do it, you just need to know that others are on the same path. This is a prime example why the world is in a state of denial. Organized religion at it's worst..it's infected every aspect of peoples lives.. The day I see this mentality that's come from a false and blinded view point...cease to be...will be the day I jump up in joy. And that's not to far of in our future. |
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| Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 30747832 United States12/24/2012 07:22 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Op..you have been tested..you have tried to kill yourself and failed..you have kept the God presence Quoting: wildhoney Tested..to make you strong and understand the plight of others tried to kill yourself and failed..because you have maybe a very important spiritual mission ahead of you Kept Gods presence..proved your faith Op..something good might be coming be patient..and keep the faith I truly want to believe that and I've had many people tell me the same thing but I always felt like I wasn't good enough. Even when I was a child I always felt like I could have done more no matter what I do. Ever since I was a child I have felt this burden. I see someone I can't help and it breaks my heart even worse. I feel that I'm nothing. For instance when I was a teenager after my dad had a stroke I sold my guitars, my video games, my guns, and everything else I had just so my family could eat. I both of my vehicles to my parents just so my mom has a way to work and my dad has a way to leave home. But when it boils down I feel like I should be doing more, even though I try so hard. |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 9380226 United States12/24/2012 07:25 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The problem you have is the same as all of us. Demonic influence in our minds. They want to see us all dead and will do anything to divide/conquer and destroy us all. What has increased is the power of the influence. You see it all over the world. The light inside people is being overwhelmed by this darkness either in them or in the people around them. Remember who the enemy really is; people are ignorant pawns of this force and unwittenly carry out acts that divide/destroy.  |
| Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 30747832 United States12/24/2012 07:27 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever? Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 Find a simple, straightforward job. Get a small place, live a quiet life. No parties, no drugs, no drinking. Exercise, eat right. Deliberately let your life calm down. Take a whole year to do this - a whole year to calm down. save some money, keep your expenses minimal. Do not get into any relationships. stay away from family and former friends. Take the year for yourself, and don't try to figure anything out - just let yourself calm down, and rest. Try to spend time in nature. Stay offline as much as possible, and read books instead. You need a break - give yourself one. A year isn't too much, and you'll have your feet on the ground again. And think about God, in whatever way makes you feel loved. If it doesn't make you feel loved, throw it out. One year - give it to yourself as a gift. You deserve the time for yourself. Man I've tried that. I live in a place that only has 10,000 people and only about 1000 jobs. Not only that but I live out in the boonies. The nearest business is almost a mile away and they aren't hiring. I've applied everywhere man and no one will hire me. I had a job working scrap metal for less than minimum wage and I lost that because my boss is a fool with money. I have to scrounge just to get by. |
| wabishkaeyabe User ID: 13126479 United States12/24/2012 07:27 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "10% of all you earn is yours to keep." That from a book called The Richest Man In Babylon. It refers to the fact that if you give it all away you have nothing left to give. Get your health in order. Eat right. "You have a right to be here and, whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt, the universe is unfolding as it should." That from Deiderata by Max Ehrman. Never give anything away that causes you distress. Stress is fine, it helps you grow, but distress is a process that weakens you. You need to know the difference. One of the greatest things I have learned, being one who gives readily, is that if you haven't got it you haven't got it to give. Also, the less you have the less you can provide, therefore making you less valuable to your social surroundings. Hope this helps. |
| Happy Xmas User ID: 28731716 Australia12/24/2012 07:28 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | OP dont waste your life away on something that might be coming. Stop having faith and get out there and live. Every-time I "have faith" the Universe sees me as being weak and strips me of something I have to fight to get back later on. Stop living "the dream" (in your case a nightmare) and start living a real life. Tell people to fuck off when they annoy you. Tell people you want to be alone when you do. Whatever it takes man, cos no one else will do it for you. |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 3560831 United States12/24/2012 07:29 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever? Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 Just said a prayer for you OP...God Bless and Merry Christmas! |
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| Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 30747832 United States12/24/2012 07:31 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I let myself fall to God's will I have prayed every day and every night for 5 years for God to show me what to do and to guide me. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 God helps those who help themselves. He is not into people who take no responsibility for their lives. Why do you think the majority of humans blame "the devil" for what is happening in the world right now? You can do it, you just need to know that others are on the same path. I have never blamed anyone. Yes people have played their part in my problems but I always feel as if I was the one that failed even though some instances truly aren't my fault. For instance my whole childhood my parents beat the hell out of me nearly every day of my life. My mother used to beat me until I couldn't breath and passed out from lack of oxygen. My father threw away our whole lively hood for drugs, at one time he used to walk around with 10 grand in cash and then we went to basically having to become indentured servants to keep from living on the streets. But I still love my parents with all my heart and wish I could have done something better. |
| Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 30747832 United States12/24/2012 07:36 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | OP dont waste your life away on something that might be coming. Stop having faith and get out there and live. Every-time I "have faith" the Universe sees me as being weak and strips me of something I have to fight to get back later on. Stop living "the dream" (in your case a nightmare) and start living a real life. Tell people to fuck off when they annoy you. Tell people you want to be alone when you do. Whatever it takes man, cos no one else will do it for you. I can't do that. I truly want to be a shitty person and blame God and hate the world, but I can't. It would be so much easier to just leave my family with nothing and go off and start my life. I have tried to do it. I was arrested because my mother called the police on me for taking "My" car that I let her use to go see my ex. I could have had her thrown in jail for it but I couldn't bring myself to it. My mother also had my enrollment canceled at my college when I was 18 and the only way I could have gotten it back was by having her arrested. But again I couldn't bring myself to do something so horrible to anyone. I got jumped by a group of football and rugby players because my friends were black I could have easily walked away and let my friends get hurt but no I stepped in and drew some of their attentions and got by jaw broken and my tooth knocked out. I can't be that person my heart wont allow it. |
| Anonymous Coward User ID: 28760789  New Zealand12/24/2012 07:39 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | OP dont waste your life away on something that might be coming. Stop having faith and get out there and live. Every-time I "have faith" the Universe sees me as being weak and strips me of something I have to fight to get back later on. Stop living "the dream" (in your case a nightmare) and start living a real life. Tell people to fuck off when they annoy you. Tell people you want to be alone when you do. Whatever it takes man, cos no one else will do it for you. Good post. |
| Anonymous Coward (OP) User ID: 30747832 United States12/24/2012 07:39 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi, let me start off by saying my life has been one train wreck after another. My whole childhood was shit. Growing up I've always tried to do the best I can to help those around me. Now I've lost everything. I lost the one girl that made me feel human, which is something I never knew before. I lost all of my friends because of immature acts of fools with Peter Pan Syndrome. My family is so fucking twisted I can't even speak of them without flying into an emotional cocktail of rage and sadness. I have no job now. I got thrown out of school over a technicality. I am slowly losing touch with my faith and with hope. Every day I wake up I wish I hadn't. I beg God for help and guidance and nothing ever comes. I've tried to kill myself 5 times in the past six months and for what ever mystical cruel universal prank I can't. I've spoke to doctors they tell me that nothing is wrong with me and no medication in the world can help. They have tried everything from anti-depressants to mood-stabilizers nothing works. I honestly don't know why the hell I'm even bothering to post anything on here seeing as only about 2% of anyone takes anything seriously. But I guess I have no options. Please, does anyone have any advice what so ever? Quoting: Anonymous Coward 30747832 Just said a prayer for you OP...God Bless and Merry Christmas! Thank you I truly do appreciate that more than you could ever know. |
