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Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 534086 United States 05/26/2023 11:43 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Yeah. I love almost everything by Distant Dream. Only recently stumbled on them. Nice breeze this evening. Really enjoying it. Tomorrow suppose to top out around 72 degrees. Just about perfect. [link to youtu.be (secure)] Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
Huginn User ID: 85192168 United States 05/26/2023 11:47 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Yeah. I love almost everything by Distant Dream. Only recently stumbled on them. Nice breeze this evening. Really enjoying it. Tomorrow suppose to top out around 72 degrees. Just about perfect. [link to youtu.be (secure)] nice breeze here as well d00bious |
Skyracula 1122 User ID: 85538876 United States 05/27/2023 12:49 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "Do I contradict myself? Very well. I am vast, I contain multitudes." -Walt Whitman "This is the Scene of the Seen Unseen, The Unseen Seen, This is the Scene" "we dont want pokemon in the control room" - the NSA, on subject of skyracula [link to app.milanote.com (secure)] |
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Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 534086 United States 05/27/2023 08:54 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I know the quality sucks, I will try re render it later but it just didn't seem to want to play nice and I'm dumb with rendering stuff. if I do manage to improve the quality I'll repost it, pretty irritating Quoting: Skyracula I think it’s great. I have no idea how those are made but you are really good at it. Haunting song. I enjoyed that as well. Go really well together. Quality seemed fine to me. Glad it was a success Quoting: Skyracula It's carthartic to make these, and to reference that zeitgeist thread of mine...I consider the act of making it to be a sort of spell. So even if I didn't share it at all...I think it would have an impact, just for the act. Or perhaps, just for the act's affect on my consciousness....every time I make an AMV, it's like I'm stamping something in time, I always remember them and the periods of time where I made them...it's like compressing that into an envelope or something Just like poetry could be a spell, or art I suppose...this is a spell too, to me. I have always loved making AMVs, the first one I ever made was with this dragon anime hehe. I hope you make more, since you enjoy making them and you’re good at it. What was the one you did with Gravity Falls? [link to youtu.be (secure)] Right, I remember that one. I think it might have been zapped when my last youtube channel was deleted though, sadly... If I stumble across those older ones, I'll repost them https://imgur.com/dCsQdeq Do you remember the name of it? Right on the tip of my tongue but can’t pull it up. Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
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Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 79314714 United States 05/27/2023 01:29 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Achieved a thing today that I began 23 years ago. This thing was never the aim back then and something that was out of reach due to reasons, but this past week I've pushed to and have now done. Quoting: Ty_ :D *glances back toward the woods, keeping an eye* Congratulations! 23 years is a long time to spend on any one thing. A thing worth doing, takes its own time. Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
Ty_ Veneficus Vita User ID: 85661996 Australia 05/27/2023 01:36 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Achieved a thing today that I began 23 years ago. This thing was never the aim back then and something that was out of reach due to reasons, but this past week I've pushed to and have now done. Quoting: Ty_ :D *glances back toward the woods, keeping an eye* Congratulations! 23 years is a long time to spend on any one thing. A thing worth doing, takes its own time. Oh, it didn't take 23 years, there was a rather notable gap lmao. Call it like a returning to where it started type of thing. Much more to do there, but this is a thing for me. :) I will sleep well, goodnight and enjoy your day! Last Edited by Tý_ on 05/27/2023 01:37 PM Coz reasons, probably. Elea tel'Taur GDMD |
Skyracula 1122 User ID: 85538876 United States 05/27/2023 03:22 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | https://imgur.com/dCsQdeq Do you remember the name of it? Right on the tip of my tongue but can’t pull it up. Thread: the Tempest Shrouded Chariot of the Shining Ones oh shiiiit it was this above this was the thread I posted it on too but sadly the video isn't there Last Edited by Skyracula on 05/27/2023 03:22 PM "Do I contradict myself? Very well. I am vast, I contain multitudes." -Walt Whitman "This is the Scene of the Seen Unseen, The Unseen Seen, This is the Scene" "we dont want pokemon in the control room" - the NSA, on subject of skyracula [link to app.milanote.com (secure)] |
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Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 79314714 United States 05/27/2023 03:53 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | https://imgur.com/dCsQdeq Do you remember the name of it? Right on the tip of my tongue but can’t pull it up. Thread: the Tempest Shrouded Chariot of the Shining Ones oh shiiiit it was this above this was the thread I posted it on too but sadly the video isn't there Bummer. I watched it several times when you were in treatment during that time. Convinced me to start Gravity Falls as well. Great show. I have a Bill Cipher sticker on the back of my phone. Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 79314714 United States 05/27/2023 03:56 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "You are bigger than what is making you anxious" Quoting: Seer777 ^Sweatshirt wisdom from a bit earlier. While considering it, a lady walked by saying to another, because people don't respect boundaries.. clever synchronicities Yeah. It was everywhere 20 minutes ago. The cat butthole guy showed up today wearing a shirt with the clown from It. https://imgur.com/a/TwVRJl9 Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
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Huginn User ID: 85192168 United States 05/27/2023 04:13 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I asked. I took a picture of a black and tan long haired dachshund earlier. Nothing else of note. Good crowds today. Spending freely. this is good good thing you made all those rings lol ahhh I bet it was a cute dog well if anyone interesting passes by try and work on your spy skills and get some pics :D maybe don't do that..maybe d00bious |
Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 79314714 United States 05/27/2023 04:23 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I am going to describe something somewhat vulnerable to me, mostly because I feel it is rather embarrassing, but considering what I have already shared publically on GLP in the breadth of my tenure here, I don't really think this would push the envelope per se. Quoting: Skyracula I'll describe what it's like to have an episode of high dissociation, or, at least this is one manifestation of what it could be like: I raid in my MMORPG with a static team every M/T/W. So I was off doing that. This just happened. We're currently trying to clear the last fight in the raid tier, which we've been doing for weeks. So you better believe I know that fight. I know it really well. But today my brain was absolutely trolling me so hard. It's like: instead of being able to focus your gaze, your gaze defaults to going blurry and you have to make a very active effort to keep it focused. then it feels like there is a veil, a screen, between your mind and whatever is happening externally. It feels like, reaching through a fog, to try and sync your actions and words with whatever is happening in the outside world. And thirdly, memory - I would see the boss casting a spell, the name of which you have to remember about 10 seconds later in order to know what to do in the fight. I kept forgetting and having to ask the team every boss pull, and they noticed, and it was embarrassing. Anything that I have in my head, disappeared within a few seconds if I do not make a very concerted effort by repeating it over and over in my head or whatever. I played really badly, I kept spacing out and doing something (I know how to do, have done probably 200+ times actually) completely wrong and then realizing I’d killed the whole party. compared to normal weeks, I made a huge amount of very stupid mistakes, like I just blanked. I have played with them sometimes when I was very fatigued or even disinterested, but it was not like this. It's quite different. I felt pretty stupid, but none of them were mad or mean or anything about it. I got teased a bit. I tried very very hard to snap out of it, but it doesn't work like that. It isn't due to drugs, or food, or meds, or a lack of caffeine, or a lack of sleep. I guess another descriptor you could add to this would be. Brain lag. Generally this happens when I get really triggered by something, maybe it was this conversation/thread about DID I posted, I'm not really sure. In this case, I didn't have any emotions to alert me to the fact that I might become dissociative or anything. I didn't have an anxiety response ... I didn't even notice until I opened the game and it was really hard to keep the arena in focus without spacing, even before we fought. But that’s also typical of a dissociative experience: the emotions being replaced by the dissociation, so instead of feeling the emotion, you just have this reaction. Well, not always, everyone has different triggers for this, they’re generally specific or tangential to whatever caused the DID. so, talking about DID for many is actually a DID trigger, though triggers honestly are meant to be dealt with and not just avoided, so it's not going to prevent me from conversing and writing about it. Thing is, I'm still dissociated but, I don't have to react quickly to anything like I did in the fight, or remember anything for a period of time - it was playing the game that really highlighted it for me, made me want to write about it because I don't think most people have much context for what it's like (seer, you might actually I have a feeling, I'm not sure) It also feels kinesthetically, something is actually pushing on you or pulling you, but only your mind. And, like you are inside your mind, and not your body at all, like floaty. Anyway....as I have been deep diving all these tiktok and youtube DID creators, they describe what I'm experiencing as a long switch, that the whole dissociative haze is what happens while the switch is occurring, and it ends when you switch. Which is interesting. Instant switches also exist, but I've heard a few of them describe this and I was able to relate. It is also sometimes accompanied by: headaches to migraines, nausea, stomach pain, or other odd physical symptoms. I don't have any of that at the moment, but those tend to be pretty bad. I get the nausea and the migraines. People have been commenting for years on how many headache pills I down in a day no matter how much water I drink and regardless of whether I've eaten. This is actually a symptom that's almost unanimously reported during dissociative episodes, which I found super interesting, because I never had been able to figure out why I have this migraine issue. dissociation is something people just don't understand. everyone experiences it now and then - highway hypnosis, or when you zone out for a minute and ask someone to repeat themselves - this happens to everyone. but this sort is on a different plane, and it's very hard to explain it in a way others can empathize with. That happened to me earlier too. That's why I stopped posting. I got super dizzy and couldn't think straight. So I stepped back for a bit until I think straight again. I've only read to the bolded bit. I'll read on. Yes! I nearly wrote above it is like being pushed on, in your mind and makes things go fuzzy. https://imgur.com/VPCHBRf https://imgur.com/oSej8Dz ‘Mental whammy’ [link to youtu.be (secure)] Gideon conjured Bill to break into Stan's brain, to steal a code. Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
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Huginn User ID: 85192168 United States 05/27/2023 04:50 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | What is the likelihood that the Soviet/Russian telepaths, are better than ours? Quoting: Seer777 Would the US Military, leave us open..in that regard or would we have that covered? Thoughts? I try and not think about this tbh I can only hope they are like picking the very best off early prolly what all those gifted test we used to do were for lol I remember every year a couple kids got moved to gifted and they basically disappeared could just be perspective though meaning I was like byeeeeeeee nerds d00bious |
Seer777 (OP) Ride the wings of the mind User ID: 79314714 United States 05/27/2023 04:55 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | What is the likelihood that the Soviet/Russian telepaths, are better than ours? Quoting: Seer777 Would the US Military, leave us open..in that regard or would we have that covered? Thoughts? I try and not think about this tbh I can only hope they are like picking the very best off early prolly what all those gifted test we used to do were for lol I remember every year a couple kids got moved to gifted and they basically disappeared could just be perspective though meaning I was like byeeeeeeee nerds Seems as enormous oversight and very difficult to hunt for.. Telepathy is very real..best get on that if they haven't already.. [link to youtu.be (secure)] Difficulties strengthen the Mind as labor does the body... ~Seneca |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 84473072 United Kingdom 05/27/2023 05:00 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Achieved a thing today that I began 23 years ago. This thing was never the aim back then and something that was out of reach due to reasons, but this past week I've pushed to and have now done. Quoting: Ty_ :D *glances back toward the woods, keeping an eye* Congratulations! 23 years is a long time to spend on any one thing. A thing worth doing, takes its own time. Oh, it didn't take 23 years, there was a rather notable gap lmao. Call it like a returning to where it started type of thing. Much more to do there, but this is a thing for me. :) I will sleep well, goodnight and enjoy your day! Looser |